So I’ve decided, after some encouragement, to delve into the (perhaps a little self-indulgent) world of blogging in a quest to find self love and leave behind past issues with eating disorders and low self-esteem.
Towards the latter part of 2016 I decided that enough was enough after spending the majority of my adult life (I am now 32) battling with issues surrounding low self-esteem and disordered eating. These issues have cost me relationships, jobs and friendships in addition to the detrimental effect to my health over the years and I hit breaking point. I think when you sink that low you know the only way is up, so off I went on the task of self-care and self-love.
Over recent months I have managed to ditch the food tracking and calorie counting, lessen my exercise regime and begin to change my mindset around it all so I do it for enjoyment and to keep fit now, rather than to stay a low weight. I have also attempted to be more positive about myself, though this is proving incredibly challenging.
It has been really difficult already and as I’ve gained weight with my more relaxed attitude, it has brought further issues to the surface. But, as they say, Rome wasn’t built in a day and I can’t expect a total transformation over night.
I will blog mainly around the issues I am facing or related to what I’m going through or have been through and hopefully it will help me work towards the end goal of feeling good about myself and having a positive relationship with food and a higher level of self-esteem. I will share past experiences and issues that have lead me to this point, when I feel more comfortable, so you have an insight into the reasons behind things. Hindsight is indeed a wonderful thing. Here goes…